Instant depression, self dislike, self doubt and frustration is all that's caused whenever this person talks. from being someone that you looked up to and wanted to be to being someone who just had a lucky break and is now abusing his power.
How does a person work that when that is what's keeping you in your job with which you are hardly surviving, taking home only enough for rent and enough for just half the month's food. Even though it's only one meal a day. Criticism, deceit, and embarrassment is all that he gives, but expects more money, power and happiness for himself from it. Such is my daily job and meeting with The Boss.
Coming from my youth into this just after making a personal break through by being able to get off pills just to keep me feeling nothing ha just proved that maybe there isn't anything for me in this world. That maybe the people who always support me are not being serious when they praise my work, but trying to just make me feel better because I'm their friend.
But being put down by someone who could never be as good as me at what i do, and losing all i have because of him is more hurtful and depressing than inspiring and pushing for the better.
Making empty promises and destroying my self-esteem seems to a favourite pastime for The Boss, and it's not only agenst me but is an attitude he has wit most of the employees he takes in.
Believing he is everything and the world is his could turn out o be the down fall of this "powerfully connected person". His attitude towards th people he shares an office with is what drives some to disgust rather than drives them to excel and he doesn't want to see how he is hurting them, so he does it o the point where everyone is too scared to confront him about the way they're being treated for far of losing their jobs. He takes this in his pride and believes this fear to be respect.
And this was the man whom i considered a role model before i worked for him....
