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AMANDA!!!!!

Gosh, it’s like it was only yesterday you came up on my screen in blogTV as my co-host for the show…

And now? We’re talking about marriage and where we’re going to honeymoon.

 

How do I know this is the right thing, some people say it’s a feeling you get when your around them... so is it possible to 

experience this feeling 

when your not exactly around them?

I am in-love with Amanda, don’t for one second even think I’m not. But how do we know this is going to work if we’ve never met? If we’ve

 not even spent a week together let alone the rest of our lives…

 

For those readers that don’t know, Amanda lives in Florida. Yes Florida in the states… I know what your thinking, but your in SA how the hell can 

one be so silly to fall in-love with someone on the other side of the world when one hasn’t got the means to even go visit!!??

Well… I don’t really know…

It just kind of happened one day when I was sitting on blogTV and she looked straight into the camera, straight into my eyes…

 as if she could sense that at that very moment I was staring at her… it felt like everything stopped, like our eyes locked and all I could see was her,

 even if in reality she only glanced for a split second…

 

I know, I know… your think to yourself, wow, this guy really is a pathetitic idiot!

But, I love Amanda…

And even if there is no possible way we’re going to be together… I have to try…

If life were perfect, we would never feel pain. Not feeling pain,  that would be amazing, to be happy 24/7. But unfortunately in life, or shall we say in

 the great “pursuit of happyness” how does one ever really know if they don’t try?

 

The whole thing has been getting me really down but I’d rather not tell her because I know it would 

make her sad that I can’t see anything ever happeneing even though I’m trying every hook and loop I can find…

If anyone has any advice… please… you know where to comment…